Mabel’s Mission

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Mabel’s Mission is a project we created in honor of our daughter, Mabel.

Mabel was born sleeping on August 12, 2018 at 37 weeks. There were no indications of anything wrong during my pregnancy. We never learned of any cause afterward.

We were able to spend some time holding her after she was born. The nurses took some photos of her baptism and us holding her. At the time, I didn’t think I would want to display photos of Mabel.

A few days after we got home from the hospital, I learned of the organization Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep. They provide professional remembrance photos for parents that have lost a baby. There were no photographers in our area when I looked. But the idea of this service interested me. I continued looking around their site and learned that they also do digital photo retouching. Upon hearing about this, I thought of the photos we had. I imagined what they might look like touched up and decided to send ours off to be edited. 

I had been searching for a way to do something to give back in honor of Mabel. And finding Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep was the perfect opportunity. 

Lilies have come to be one of the symbols we use to remember her. So I designed Mabel’s Lily Soap. 

100% of the proceeds from this soap will be donated to Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep in honor of Mabel.

See more about Mabel’s Lily Soap or place your pre-order.
This special edition soap is no longer available this year. It will be offered again in October 2020 for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.

Pictured above is Mabel’s Lily Soap with the baby blanket lovingly made by our church and our remembrance candle.

To learn more about Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep or to get information of how to volunteer,
I encourage you to visit nowilaymedowntosleep.org

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The story of Mabel’s birth…

We learned we were expecting our third child in December 2017. Will and I were absolutely thrilled. Our family didn’t quite feel complete and we were excited to have another baby.

My pregnancy seemed completely normal and healthy. Our baby was growing well and incredibly active. 

On Sunday, August 12, 2018 we were awoken by our dog getting sick. He had actually gotten us up several times that night. In my head I thought it was good practice for what was to come. I was 37 weeks – only 3 more to go. Will went back to bed, but for some reason I was having a hard time getting back to sleep. And then I realized that I hadn’t felt the baby move in a while. 

I poked and prodded my belly. I did some of my stretches that always seemed to get things moving. I had something to eat. I drank some really cold water. And I still felt nothing. 

I woke Will up. He pushed on my belly. I thought I felt something. We called the hospital. They told us to come get monitored. 

I don’t think we were at the hospital for more than 15 minutes before we found out. But it felt like days. 

The nurse looked and looked and looked and looked. She couldn’t find the heartbeat. 

Our midwife arrived and looked via ultrasound. I will never forget how still it looked. I will never forget the words she said, “Your baby is gone.”

We chose to find out then if we had a girl or a boy. More words from my midwife that I will never forget, “You have another daughter.” My immediate response was, “I’m never right!”

Right away I felt that this was Mabel. Will agreed. We hadn’t settled on a name before this. Mabel was a family name from Will’s side. I said Helen for a middle name, my grandmother’s name. 

Mabel Helen – bright, loving light

She was born on the same date that Will’s dad passed away six years ago. He was there, waiting to greet her in his arms. 

It hasn’t been that long since this all happened. But we’ve had incredible support from our church, from family, friends, and even people we barely know. This is a journey that will never end. Leaning on our faith, each other and our support system we will continue on. 

Thank you for letting me share our story with you. Thank you for remembering Mabel.